When God says “no”.

I’ve had a lot of people ask me lately what’s going on with the adoption process. So instead of awkwardly answering the question again and again, I’ve decided to post a blog. We are not adopting any time soon, and possibly not at all. I’m not going to go into all the reasons why, but all I will say is that for some reason I feel really strongly that God is saying “No” to us.  Its been a hard no to accept, but I am learning to accept it. Maybe it will happen 5 or 10 years down the road, but for this moment, its not happening.

I have deleted most of my related blogs, and our fundraising links. I did, however keep the one of our photo shoot up, in hopes that another couple will find some inspiration to use for their own photos. (They did make it to Pinterest!)

And while adoption is not on the table right now, I do know that God did put adoption on my heart heavily. So whatever was donated to us, I am giving to other couples so that they can bring their children home.  Maybe one day I will start a ministry to financially help others adopt. I would love to do that, honestly, and maybe that was the purpose of God putting it on my heart,

I do not know what is in store for our family. Whether we have children or not, that’s all up to God. There’s still a chance He wants to give us a miracle despite being told our chances are slim. But its not something I’m going to focus my energy on.

No matter what, it all comes down to Jeremiah 29:11 – “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.”  

Our Adoption Photo Shoot

A few months ago, I emailed a young lady at my church who’s photography captivated me. I proposed the idea of a non-maternity, adoption themed, photo shoot inspired by photos I stumbled across on Pinterest. Well, she LOVED the idea! Not only that, but she had a heart for adoption as well. Her family started an orphanage in Haiti, and her little sister had been adopted from there. It took a few months to finally get around to doing the photos, but when we did, she literally recreated exactly what I had imagined them to be. I am excited to share some of them with you here!

Photos by Elisabeth Huijskens of Newsong Photography.


I am really excited the way these turned out. I wanted the simplicity of an open field, and it was close to sunset so the lighting was absolutely perfect!

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Ephesians 1:5 says that “God decided in advance to adopt us into his own family by bringing us to himself through Jesus Christ. This is what he wanted to do, and it gave him great pleasure.” (NLT)

James 1:27 says “Pure religion and undefiled before God and the Father is this, to visit the fatherless and the widows in their affliction, and to keep himself unspotted from the world.” (KJV)

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John 14:18 says, “I will not leave you as orphans, I will come to you.”

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We had a lot of fun with this shoot! Hope you enjoyed the photos. I promise to have a real blog post soon to update what is going on with us!

Be blessed.